My DAILY poison

i'm TAGGED!!

2007-09-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

10 people you love. (excluding family members. Not in order)
Poh Leong
Kavita
Jessica Soo and Ng (does dat count for 1 or 2)
Yee Wern
Patrina
Sis Kim
Ps John
Cassandra
Bryan Chow

10 things you want to do before you die along the way.
Get a tribal tattoo (must dust off drawings of my tattoo designs)=P
Get Tuner car and hit 230km/h with it
Solo with my guitar like i'm on the piano=P (be one with the guitar)
Scare the Shit out of my buddies=D heheh
Colour my hair fringe white again..
Play

10 things you cannot live without.
Piano
both my Guitars
my PC
My Handphone
Wallet
my watch

(NONIT 10 KUA) =P

10 bad habits.
procrastination
work like a bull(workaholic)
must hum 'HIGHWAY TO TELL' while driving alone (creepy,i know=P )
doing stupid stuff whenn ppl dare me to do it..

10 attitudes that turns you off.
oi, of course bad attitude la..wat else?:P

10 words to describe yourself. (5 good and 5 bad)
tall

BAD
thin.. too thin.. and i eat alot..too much edi=P
workaholic
dun know when to sleep
must sleep with lights on coz i read before sleeping
like smelling my clothes before i wear them=P

GOOD
safe driver
quiet most of the time
like playin random music
love sitting on piano and belting a tune

10 favourite bands.
Basement Jaxx
Metallica
Joe Satriani
John Petrucci

10 most prized possessions.
my guitars
my piano
my AMP
my HP
my PC

10 people to tag
errr...the name all on top i list one kena tag=P pandai pandai la sekalian:P

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Rules:
1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Inner-Outer Beauty
hmm, balance i guess?=)but i tink i'm more inclined to the inner kua

Devoted
devoted to me=) WOohOoo!!!

Over pouring with joy
haha, who doesn't want someone who is joyful?

Acceptance
Acceptance eh?=P accept me can edi la.. waht more can i ask?

Good Company
of course must be good company,if not who is gonna be there for me when i cry wor?=P

i tag
KAVITA =P as if she'll read..hahah

Be grateful for what you've got, ingrate..

2007-08-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

sometimes i don't quite understand some ppl.they seem to have everything,never have to work for their position or material,yet they yabber about how much more they deserve..how the world is being unfair..and the one which i hate the most,how unfair the world is..

they are the ones who nv have to spend a single cent on their vehicles(provided by daddy),never give their parents a single cent even when he starts working(GREAT SCOTS!!what kind of kid is dat??),complains about never having enough money(on a RM5000 salary or more he claims he gets).yet buys a PS2,PSP,etc etc etc,or his so called 'ESSENTIAL' items..

and here's the ultimate clincher that makes me puke: he's got the balls to tell his dad to get him a new car coz he's 'LIFESTYLE' is in need of a higher class vehicle>.<

oh gosh,i've had friends who are literally born with silver spoons in the mouth yet never seem to profess that kind of arrogance that is expected to come with all the wealth and status..

sometimes i dont even know why i waste my time having someone like that as a friend.its an utter disgrace to me to hear such a person still exist.having the mentality of 'got looks no substance'.each time we meet,it's all about how much he earns or whats his latest projects..sighs,grow up,boy..i daresay i'm working on more intresting stuff den you.'higher up lifestyle my arse'go earn ur own money,pay for your own car,give ur parents some money and go live outside before berating me about how 'independant' you are.

Father and son

2007-07-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

was driving myself to work dis morning when i came upon a sight which brought back memories of me and my dad.it was a father and son sitting under a tree watching planes and helicopters taking off from an air strip.juz watching them while i was stuck in the jam brought me back to the days when my dad will juz bring me on the bicycle and we'll go around wherever the bike takes us.dad always say the distance is only limited by how much we can pedal=)those were the days when my mum who was then working in Subang Airport will bring me to work.i'll juz spend the whole day sitting outside on the take off and landing strip juz watching planes taking off and landing.i remember how much of joy it use to bring and the dreams it evoke in the mind of a small child.makes me wonder how a man flies such a BIG HUNK OF METAL and how it feels like to actually be in control of one=)

well,when i was younger..my family did not have the luxury of splurging money on trips and other things beyond the basic needs and necessities.its not dat i'm ungrateful but actually i'l like to thank my parents for providing as much as they can in my time of growing up.anything beyond the basic needs such as food and shelter,is considered a luxury that we can do without.that kind of upbringing cemented the principles of working hard on a dream,working for something u want to achieve.and in my life,i'm proud to say i've basically worked for everything i have.its not much but it's proudly in MY NAME=)i am everything i am, thanx to u,mummy and daddy.love u both=)

there are a lot of things i didnt expect to achieve but in the midst of working hard,i've come to realize dat everything i could ever ask for has already been given to me by my parents..the will to WORK HARD for something.dat in itself is something no money can ever buy.i wouldnt say i'm already a 'SUCCESS STORY' but then again,at least i'm working steadily towards the goal i have set before myself.the main ingredient of success lies in the eyes of how u perceive success.success is when u work hard for the money u earn.success is when u can stand in ur own two feet and afford ur own life.success is when you have friends and families who loves u.and in dat regard,i consider myself a success=)

it's amazing how my mind wanders when i see things from simple everyday life..but i reali thank God for the 'Father and Son' pair i witness on my day to work today.it reminds me of how far i come from simple days of my childhood=)and also how much more i've come to appreciate my upbringing=)

A sad birthday?not reali=)

2007-07-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

juz had my birthday past silently behind y'day..its kinda sad knowing i've had to adjust to my current lifestlye of work.even had to spend my birthday in the office.was here since till 6.30am dis morning.but u know wat brought me through the day?its those wishes from ppl in the youth=)its nice to know we're remembered and appreciated.i mean who doesnt?=)hahah

anyways,for the benefit of ppl who hasnt been updated on my career,i've juz quit my job to join the Production industry.it's been hell of a time for me..in both good and bad ways.but then again,the good far far outweighs the bad of course.but one major bone of contention for me would be not having enuf time to spend with the ppl who matter to me.my family,my friends..God, Church.havent been goin church for the past 3 weeks.if wana talk bout praying,sometimes i'm juz too tired when i get home to even clasp my hands and say a word of thanx for the day the Good LORD has brought me through.I know i need this alot coz most times when i drive home in the wee hours of the morning,my eyes are barely open and my car seems to have a mind of its own.dangerous i know,but i dun seem to hav a choice do i?=)

to save u guys the 'EXCRUCIATING' ordeal of attending my 'funeral'*JUZ JOKING*,which i doubt u guys will even attend,i've opted to stay in KL.will be moving up here on August.might not see me around much due to my erratic working hours,but i'm onli a phone call away.i'll miss u guys loads*hugX*yea i know i know,some ppl might juz say ITS KL LA!!but den again,its the working hours la.wee hours in the morning..from Monday to Sunday.i doubt i'l ever hav a normal life again la>.
oh yea,sori for the long time no posting on my blog.i doubt ppl still come my blog la but well,no harm writing wats on my mind rite?its my BLOG afta all..

OH YEAH!!one more thing i wana address..i wonder why sometimes ppl seem to b juz about EMO bout everything in life.well,i would tink its normal to b EMO once in a while but not EVERYTIME la please>.< dats like pathetic la..perhaps u need a refresher on how much thankful u should b compared to 70 percent of the ppl in the world out there.theory of the glass and u pour water into it..IS IT HALF EMPTY or HALF FULL? both answers are correct,but which one of it gives u a more positive tone?think bout it,EMO is juz part and parcel of life..given time,you should b able to juz let it off once u realize there are much more things in this life to be thankful for.i'm not pointing fingers at anyone..juz a word of advice,being EMO,its okies..SNAP OUTTA IT as soon as u can=)coz ur friends are waiting for the 'beautiful' smile.sori if i hurt anyone's feelings,but i'm juz stating what i feel.and no matter how harsh i get with my comments sometimes,i want u all to know..i love u all the same..

afraid to know?

2007-03-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

looking beyond the grove,

i sense the emptiness boiling,

an anger seething devoid of love,

silence rules with only my heart beating.

wolfs howl in the distance,

the moon guides my trail along the glades,

as the willowy shadows of trees dance,

casting an ominous aura of no escape.

i struggle for a cause beyond all reason,

a cause deemed worthless to the world,

bordering insanity n uncertainty gnaws a person,

who's believes n principles the world deems cold

ps:-its an unfinished poem which came to my mind while i was sleeping 2 days ago.somehow i keep having nightmares about walking through a dark forest..well,i dont know wat that means so if u got any intresting theories to put,juz drop them here.appreciate it LOTS!!

2007-03-07T16:26:00.000+08:00

jus a post bout a killer of rabbits..i cant stand cute stuff anymore!!!!ARGGHHH!!!*STABS STABS STABS*

A new Start..from my part=)

2007-03-02T11:34:00.000+08:00

it's been a long while..but i guess its a combination of work n random bouts of depression dats keepin me from bloggin nowadays.but i guess u guys dun need to know wats goin on.ppl who need to know,u'l know.sori for the late late LATE delays n stuff.

honestly,i've never been the person to blog.coz i could never imagine that anybody would wan to read wat i hav written n wat i hav to go through each day.i've even considered closing it down seriously but there has been ppl pestering me to keep it open.but through onli this 2 post,i could surmiss dat ppl actually do care.and i hav come into contact wit ppl i thought i hav lost contact with afta such a long amount of time.mostly i tink the problems lie wit me..my impression to ppl would b dat i'm outgoing,gregarious and noisy but sad to say afta all this years,i've come to know dat it was juz a shell or somewat cocoon of protection for the real me,insecure,quiet,and all things introvert.

i thank u all for the support that was given through my stint of time,whether u know it or not..it's been a great comfort knowing i hav good friends i could fall on when i need them.u guys showed me friendship with the constant encouragement,correct me when i've made a mistake,showed me wat it was dat made me burn in my faith.though ppl look to me as a youth leader,i feel awkward in a way because instead of me leading the youth,i feel humbled by my faith n believe compared to wat the young ppl in church are experiencing.i feel i've been more blessed being with them instead of being juz a blessing to them.for that i thank u=)wish i could hug each n everyone of u..

suffice to say,I'M BACK ONLINE..wait for more updates on stupid stuff and silly thoughts.dis is juz a prelude to more of my thought bubble

a butterfly has alwiz been a symbol of opening mysely up to a new horizon..so i juz drew dis on a whim while writing my blog.so i guess i'l juz add it in=)it's a whole beginning..

My WorST day ever??Nahhh

2007-01-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

sighs,i know some ppl say a blog should b a place for creative thinkin or watnot..but sighs..i guess i should feel for once how it feels like juz to see wat it feels like to post problems i faced for the world 2 see..wondering if it does make me feel better.Hmmm,lemme see where should i start..OH YEAH..Sat Sat Sat!! Y'dAy marked the first time in a LONG LONG time dat i have played in YE afta a Long LONG TIme=D hahah.anyways..within a span of 1 hour,3 things i hold to be important to me..my car, my HP and my watch..each had a minor accident..ARGHh..first i BANGed my car,den i dropped my phone when i wanted to call someone,den when i wanted to check my watch 2 c wat time was it,my watch battery died.sighs..sad to the max ler.WHY WHY WHY WHYW HY..was seriously considering missing Sam's party coz i was a lil depressed afta dat.but guess i decided to show up anyways coz i figured wats the point of cryin over spilled milk.Hmm,felt loads betta afta seeing the bunch of MONKEYs (Youth PPL) in the party.seeing them goin nuts n all really made me tink for a second on how much i could b enjoying life rather den juz gloat over it.as this came about..my thinkin got back to rationally tink of wat i could do.my car has been knocked on the bumper..juz scratches..nothin some polishin wouldnt do=)my hp stil works,juz a lil scratch..if it cracked,juz get it changed la..my watch no batt,change la battery..tinkin dat way reali got me through the night.thanx, all the young ppl from church.though u may not know it,u guys are an example that i need to follow too.haha,take life easy.right?yeaps..cheers guys=D*HugX*there are more things in life den to wori bout dis kinda stuff.

My oWn office Torture...

2007-01-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

see dis device here?well,for you ppl who don't know,its my term of a 'NASTY' torture gadget..heheh,well..i'm suppose to be designing a packaging for it dats why i got dis 'TOY' to play with=D so i was fiddling n fiddling around wit it n finally figured out how dis device works and guess for wat it does,its good at it..heheh,faster faster guess la wat is it.Yeaps, for u peeps out there..dis is a breast pump.or my more affectionate term for it 'nipple sucker'=D its used to suck breast milk out for feeding.

Can see the device attached in the photos here.basically its juz a pump and a funnel attached to a bottle.put the 'FUNNEL' u know where n start pumping milk la..sighs,anyways..u know me..the CRAZY NUTCASE.so wat i did was, i put the funnel on myself n start pumping la(kids don't try this at home)5 pumps was all it took for the the pump to b stucked on me.HOW DO MOTHERS ACTUALLY USE THIS THING?freaking pain la even playing wit it for 2 mins.den when i wanted to pull it out,oni i found out the pressure release valve was 'SPOILED'..OMG..hurt like heck..worst=*(finally managed to pull it out wit a LOUD LOUD POP..sighs,was left with a LARGE ROUND 'scar' on 'my precious'.had to wear loose loose clothings for one week or so to make sure it doesnt rub..dis one reali pain in the 'chASSt'=P well,i guess i'l b avoiding playing wit all these gadgets for a while..UP TIL the latest contraption falls on my table again la.heheh,hey..dis is called QC k?QUALITY CONTROL.had to make sure it works before we ship it out mah*a lame attempt at protecting myself*=P

The Jaws of death